Friday, September 20, 2019

Word of the week: Guilt!

Uh Oh, the word this week is:


I know the sort of responses I'm going to get, I've already heard them: 'well don't' and 'you deserve a break'. 
Doesn't change how you feel, inside, though, does it?

The reason I'm feeling like this? I'm doing something totally for myself! Yes, I'm going to a blogging conference (I mentioned it the other day, in a post), totally for me. I'm not doing it because I have to, or because I'm somehow involved, this is my choice. However, with that comes consequences. Can I really afford this?
What if I hate it, that's such a waste?
What if something happens, when I'm not at home?

Oh, and to add to that, Ajax was in tears this morning, going to school, and didn't want to let me go...........massive guilt.

What is it with some mothers? Why can't we do something, for ourselves, without the guilt? Maybe it's just been too long since I did something totally for me, through choice, not demand or necessity. 

So, I'm currently lying in bed, in my cheap hotel, talking myself into staying (and determined not to cry). I dare not phone home, to check up, because that would upset Ajax again, so I just have to put on my grown up pants, and crack on.

Any tips on not feeling guilty, when you feel like you've abandoned everyone?
Anyone??


Word of the Week linky

4 comments:

  1. You can spend your life worrying about the what if's but sometimes you have to take the chance.
    Good for you for doing something for yourself. You put your big girl pants on and do it! I hope you have a fab time at BlogOn. I am so annoyed I am missing out. x

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  2. Enjoy yourself. They will be fine at home. Big hugs when you get home and you will be refreshed and full of motivation. Sounds like a win-win to me. Definitely make the most of it. #wotw

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  3. I've been in this situation so, so many times. But the weird thing is...they do survive without you. I hope the guilt didn't way you down too much time to have fun x
    #Wotw

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  4. It is hard not to feel guilty when you take time for yourself - I struggle with that too. Hope you had a fab time at the blogging conference and that all was well at home in your absence x #WotW

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