Yes, I'm still here! I've been busy, really really busy.
Back to school has been a bit chaotic, it's gone well. For the first time, in many years, Ajax has gone back to school without any problem at all. Such a relief!
Since they've gone back to school, I've been focusing a lot more on what makes ME happy. It's been wonderful.
Each morning I spend 5 minutes putting some make up on and doing my hair, it really is the simplest things that can make you feel good. It's not that I'm going anywhere and I'm not putting much make up on, but it makes me happy.
I've come to other conclusions, while having time to myself:
A: I kind of like being a homebody. I like pottering around, cleaning things up.
B: I'm finally realising that I'm happy in my own skin.
For health reasons I still need to lose weight, but I'm happy with what I have too.
One thing I've wondered when coming to these conclusions: When do we stop changing? I already feel like a totally different person to the one I was 10 years ago. Back then I would stand up for myself, take no shit. Now, you confront me I'll run away and hide! I used to love to be out partying and craved the attention of others, now I'm happy with my own company and my idea of a night out is the cinema.
Will I feel differently again, when I'm in my 50's? I know a lot of it is to do with parenting children with autism. You'd think it gets easier as they get older, but it just throws up different challenges.
So, do you feel like a different person, as you get older?
Do we ever stop changing, or are we just adapting to our surroundings?
I'd love to hear your views.