I've noticed in real life, and on here, I've been very negative. I've not felt the best of myself, since my fall I got worse! I've said in a previous post that I'm not one of the 'positive mental attitude' types. I'm more of a:
'Life's a bitch, then you die'
Looking back at my memories on facebook and all I see is negativity, mostly about myself! I don't care what others think of me, I care about what I think of myself. Me and Mr. Ojo had a talk the other day (meaning I talked, he listened) and I opened up about things that have been getting me down. Mostly it's feeling redundant.
The children look to him, around the house, I feel like the bad guy all the time. I explained that I have given my all to the men in my life, since I met him at 16. I was a working mum, then I was a stay at home mum, and a full time carer.
The problem is, where does that leave me now?
The answer is: it leaves me to sort myself out.
I have made the decision to throw myself into getting fit and healthy, which is all I really want! So I have continued to listen to my Thinking Slimmer pods, I have gone back to Zumba AND I have joined a gym. Me, a gym.
I am starting to feel the difference already, so I thought I would share it with you.
If you have been giving your all to the ones you love, make sure you give some to you too. Even the smallest amount of time.
I am taking a positive attitude to my changes. This time I WILL succeed.