That is what has happened. It's gone, along with most of my energy, I think.
Here are some of the reasons why:
I am one of those people you complain about on social media, depending on benefits. The problem when you complain about that, publicly, is that you hurt those whose story you don't know. People that don't work, that live at the pub, smoke, have regular holidays, they actually don't give a crap! It's the ones that have worked hard, then life defeated them in all sorts of ways, that you really hurt.
I've lost my roar thanks to the government. They constantly ignore the mental health aspect of disability (they actually don't give a crap about most disabilities, in the UK, but this is my blog, not everyone else's). I have had no help, outside of schools, since discovering my sons autism.
I have no respite, even most people that deal with us agree I need some. I normally depend on my mam, she comes and spends a few days in my house, with my children, while me and the hubby have a couple of nights in a cheap hotel. This year, so far, finances have been against us having one...........so far. We are having a couple of nights away in 2 weeks though.
I wonder if that will revive my roar?
I'm exhausted from trying to lose weight. I've got to the point, where I wonder, do I really want it bad enough? I mean, I've never been slim, so why bother??
I really can't be assed to exercise, except for Zumba. Even that has gone by the wayside, the last couple of weeks. I fell last week, hurting a lot of the right side of my body. That added to the whole self pity party!
I'm no longer in the sling, it was more a precaution.
Like most carers, my life revolves totally around those that need me. They have all had my roar, I've shouted from the rooftops for them.
Maybe that's why I squeak for myself?
So, in the coming weeks, I'm going to try and recapture my roar.
It's time to see friends again.
To get my hair done again.
Time to care about ME!
So if you are a carer, and you've lost your roar, let's get it back together!
Remind me to blog too! Because I keep forgetting.