Before I start, I am not fishing for compliments, I'm not down or depressed. Just a little lost.
(Mr. Ojo, pipe down before you start!)
I've been feeling a little lost for a while, not quite sure where I fit in the world. I have a wonderful children. Yes, they can be extremely hard work, they all have issues, but that's my 'normal' so it's just something I get on with.
I have a wonderful hubby, which you probably know, I talk about him often enough! I know he is now at home full time, and not as physically able as he once was, but he's all mine.
The problem is: I used to do everything, now I don't.
Since finishing work Mr. Ojo helps around the house, with things he can do. Quite frankly, he's better at most of it, than me. He gets the boys up in the morning (I am NOT a morning person), I get them to school.
After that............I don't really do anything, of use. I can't go out to work, as I am always on call. There is a phone call from one child, or another, nearly every day. There is a limit on what the mister can do about these calls, particularly in this cold frosty weather.
I never knew what I wanted to do, when I was young.
The problem is, I still don't.
I am going to grow old, never having achieved anything.
I'm not highly intelligent, but I'm not dumb either. I feel that most things can be done better by others, particularly Mr. Ojo, who is incredibly intelligent (this is where you pipe down).
I have nothing in my life that excites me.
I don't go out often, can't really afford to anymore.
I used to love to sing, now it's just something I do when I'm cleaning.
I love to dance, now I feel judged, because I'm 'plus sized', so I only dance around the house.
I have nothing that is mine, except this blog. Unfortunately, I don't do anything of interest to write about.
Is this something that comes with mid life?
Am I going through a mid life crisis?
I would love some opinions from my 40+ readers.