OK, this is it. This is the last whiny, feeling sorry for myself, post. I have to get my shit together.
I have spent most of the last few days wallowing in self pity and crying. This has to stop! I have not picked up a sewing needle or a pencil. I have done very little. So lets get it all out now, lets lay the cards on the table and try to get myself back to 'normal'.
You see, I didn't just have a Dr's appointment this week, in which I found out why I was in PAIN. I have also had a diabetic review, with the nurse. Yes, you guessed it.........
More Bad News
I go to quarterly reviews. They check my blood pressure, review my HBAC1 (for those not in the know, that is an average of your blood sugar reading, over the 3 previous months), they also weigh me.*sigh*
I should also state, I missed my last appointment, I just didn't have the energy or time for it, it was around Christmas?! So I am sat there, proudly telling her that I have been looking after myself, that I was following the Slimming World plan.........blah blah blah.
So she checked my BP. It was up.
She reviewed my HBAC1. It was up.
Then I got on the scales........you guessed it.....
IT WAS UP!?
What the actual f**k!?
It actually weighed me heavier than I was 17lb ago! How is that even possible?!
She did politely tell me to pay attention to my own scales, be positive, blah blah blah.
So basically, I am now on even more tablets for my diabetes (which can make you gain weight?!). I then have to go back in 4 weeks, if my BP and weight are not lower, you guessed it..........more medication.
So there you have it. This is why I am quiet on FB and Twitter. I don't want to whine non stop at people (although, when I have done it, Twitter you have been amazeballs). I am supposed to be going out this weekend, but I have backed out. I am worried I will have a few Gins and end up a blubbering mess........that is not what a hen night is supposed to be like!
As for the scales.....
Quite frankly, I would of been happy with a half a stone gain. Happy that I had got away with the shit choices I have made!
Good luck any fellow wobblers, I have already had one positive text (you know who you are), proud of you girlie.