I had actually written a post about the new prince, that I was going to publish today. My plans changed though, after spending yesterday evening with 2 friends.
I shall give you a little background. A few of us have fallen together in the last 2 years, we all went to the same school. When we were at school, none of us actually hung around together. I had known 1 of them since I was a very young child, but as we had grown, we'd fallen into a different set of friendships, as you do. The rest of us were no more than passing acquaintances.
I genuinely can't remember how we came together, aside from Facebook being involved. The unusual thing about us, I suppose, is that we have very little in common. We are a blend of single parents, married parents and not parents. Most of the time it's a very good blend.
Anyway, back to last night. I went over for coffee at E's house, with L. I shall leave it at initials, they'll know who they are anyway, as they are both readers. Somehow we got onto conversation about going abroad, I think it was me that started it. 3 of them had gone abroad together this year, and I'd said I didn't want to go on a girlie trip abroad.
This ended up becoming one of he best therapy sessions I could possibly asked for!
They are both hardworking. L is one of the most chilled people I know. E is very spiritual.........I am neither, not really. I mean I can be chilled and I do have my personal beliefs, but it's not the same.
They really made me realise that I don't have issues with other people, just me.
I have such bad self esteem that I think people look down on me. They made me realise that the problems I have with others is not the way they see me, but the way I think they see me. Which is really how I see myself!
I know I have lot of work to do on myself, but it was a bit like someone turning on a light.
Now I just have to convince myself to see in the mirror what others see!