I haven't written a blog in a couple of days. Lots going on and lots on my mind. Just needed to get my head in order or it would have been a jumbled mess!!
I completed my 10k Race for life!!! Not as hard as you'd think. My legs and ankle started to ache at around 5k but I pushed through like the trooper that I am!!
Maybe shouldn't of though as the next day I ended up in the local hospital, apparently I have strained my Achilles, on writing this I am finally able to put weight on my foot for the first time in several days!
This is not what has been worrying me....
Without being specific, my hubby has to go away for work for a bit. Not too long but it is the longest we've been apart since we met.........23years ago!!
This is where my worries and fears are. I should be concerned with looking after 2 children that demand a lot of my attention and a 3rd who can be very emotional, but I'm not....
I'm more worried that I will cope, that doing it alone will be easier.
My hubby is a great daddy, but he genuinely can only do one thing at a time and struggles with his patience when they are shouting over one another with their demands...
I worry that I WON'T miss him!....This one has reduced me to tears. I know my hubby thinks I'm worrying because he's going, but I'm terrified I won't miss him!!
What if I get comfy being able to starfish in bed.
Or find it easier that I have a car (he currently has it to go back and forth to work), and that I don't have to arrange my day around his lunch hour?
The biggy that's really getting to me though....I'm Jealous!
Why should he get to go away and be single?! I know that he has to work, but when he finishes he won't have to think about feeding hungry mouths or what they'll be wearing the next day.
These things have worried me so much that I nearly typed this at 2am this morning, I can't sleep, I'm in tears!!!
My hubby always seems to be tired these days and we don't have a lot of time for each other, something that comes with 3 children, but especially when they have extra needs.
So those are my worries and fears.
Am I silly or justified.........