Sunday, March 17, 2019

My Sunday snapshot

It's been weird sort if week, I seem to have had loads to do, yet not much going on?

The problem with that sort of week? Not many photos taken. I've actually pinched some of this weeks pictures off the hubby. Like the fact that, despite what the weather is claiming, spring is actually here! 

Also that, he loves how into the rugby I am! (we went again this week England v Scotland).

One big thing did happen this week, my middle boy got accepted onto his college course! It's an extended rock school diploma, with the aim being to work within the music industry. It also opens the doors to universities based around music. We are all beaming, and so proud of him.
This is a picture I took, while waiting for him to have his interview.

So, in September this  year, I'll have a child in his final year of uni, a child starting college and, one starting secondary school.

No wonder I feel so old! 

Friday, March 15, 2019

Bad mam, or good?

Today I'm not sure.

Ajax is struggling with school. There's barely a lunch time that he doesn't come out crying, or being quiet and upset after school. I'm already picking him up every lunch time, so that he can get a break through the day (it's also a safety issue I have), there's not much more I can do to make it easier for him.

Photo by Thomas Kolnowski on Unsplash

For the first time, since he started this school, I don't feel he's being understood. I think he's being pushed too hard, and not in a way that will encourage him to do it, it's sending his anxiety through the roof. Don't get me wrong, I know he goes to school to learn, I just don't understand why they had to change what was already working.

Also, for the first time, I don't feel listened to. We know Ajax has some hyper-mobility issues, especially in his hands and feet, long distances are a struggle for him and he struggles with things like doors and cutlery. He truly detests writing, even though he is brilliant at it, we genuinely believe it's a struggle for him, but nobody will listen! Ajax won't speak up, outside the house he'll barely talk, if he can get away with it.

The pick ups are getting harder to do. I've left the school fighting back my own tears, more than once.

So, when he woke up a little snotty today, climbing into our bed, as usual, I thought 'sod it', and kept him home. Realistically, he was well enough for school, I just simply couldn't cope with seeing him upset again.

I've always been happy with the school he's in, they've been amazing so far. It just seems that this year, his final in the school, it's all changed, they want to change him. I've had a couple of meetings, with his next school, which is a special resource base, which have gone so well. My poor little boy can't wait to start there.

I'm going to have to have a meeting, with his current school, soon, just to discuss my concerns. I know what their response will be, but if I don't fight my sons corner, who will??

So good or bad, he stayed home today. In fact, he didn't leave our bedroom all day (it took me a while to clear the Lego out, before bed).

What would you have done?
And, how would you move forward?
All advice welcome, I can't bare to see my gorgeous boy upset.

Thursday, March 14, 2019

Where this blog is at:

I'm a happy, middle-aged, woman. One of the joys of this? I can change my mind as often as I like, and not give a shit. Blame it on hormones, or age, whatever, it is what it is.

Photo by Javier Allegue Barros on Unsplash

I love my little blog, over the years it's been with me, it's changed direction with my moods. I don't tend to go with the 'fashion', I go with what I like. The current wave are no longer really known as bloggers, they prefer to be called influencers, I am most definitely not one of those. I find that most 'influencers' tend to advertise and review, I have done this in the past, but no more. 
I got an email, just yesterday, offering me a £33 face cream, in exchange for an Amazon review. I mean, really?! I buy my face cream from Aldi, or the Pound shop!

Most of the brands, that want people to advertise their products, are way out of my price range. That's not saying I won't share stuff I like, but I can guarantee it will be low cost (read cheap). I won't be producing a Mother's day guide, because I tend to make my mother's presents, or just give her time.

So I guess I could call myself a 'diarist', rather than a blogger/influencer. So if you have no interest in my life (or lack of it), diets and autism, then I won't be offended if you don't come back. We all have stuff going on, I'm happy just tapping away for no reason.

I'll continue to rant/share opinions, I like doing that on here. I feel there's a ranty post coming about period poverty, in the UK. When will we be more open about it? For now I shall stop there, as that deserves a post all of it's own.

The other thing, most posts will not go live until later in the evening. I don't have the time, or the energy, to write during the day. I'm still living with autism, after all, which means we are dealing with a lot at the moment, particularly in relation to school.

I hope you'll continue to join me x