Saturday, September 23, 2017

Time for a Shake up!

I am allowing life to kick my ass, at the moment, it can't continue! I love this little corner of the Internet, that I call mine, but I am neglecting it terribly.

It's time to shake things up a little, both here and in life.

During October I have decided to join in with Hexmumblog's Blogtober17 idea. Basically, it's a prompt, every day, for the month of October. I'm hoping it gets my creative juices flowing and gets me back to the routine of writing, which I used to love. I keep using the excuse that I don't have time, but I do! It doesn't take me long to write things down, once the idea is formed, I've just gotten lazy.

I've also found myself a little wary to write what I really want to say. There are so many bloggers now, offering advice or opinion, that I feel a little lost. This is one of the reasons I need to shake myself. I'm not those people! I have my own, valid, opinions, whether others agree with me is up to them, which also opens up discussion.

I can offer my reading habits (I read A LOT), I can take you on my Slimming World journey with me. There is so much I can offer, all of it from MY perspective, and I'm the only one that can do that, right!?

Talking of my Slimming World journey, that's the other area I need a shake. Over the last 3 weeks I have gained 5lb! I'm not going to blame anything other than my own laziness. I have not eaten healthily at all, and it's all down to me.

I know we all get times when we simply can't be assed, but I really didn't have to eat my sons ice cream, last Sunday, did I?! It would of been very easy to say no, seeing as I'd just stuffed a carvery!?

The funny thing is, since last Monday, I've been back on plan. I've meal planned, cooked some delicious meals from scratch and looked up some recipes to try.......and loved every second of it. So why did I slip? I think life just kicked our butts.

The thing about living with children, with autism, is you're never quite sure what's going to happen next. Ajax's stomach has really been playing up, including a 5a.m. shower and bed change, in the last week. RJ has been on edge since going back to school, then his brother moved out, we've honestly been waiting for him to pitch a fit. This week he did! However, that's out of his system now, so we can come out the other side and move on.

So this is me, shaking myself.

I'm not re-inventing, I'm just re-invigorating. I'm going to manage my time better, get more organised and show myself, and this blog, some love.

Anyone else in need of an autumn shake up?

Monday, September 18, 2017

What a Week!!

I have had absolutely no time, or energy, to write, this past week. Since the beginning of September, our house has been crazy, utter chaos.

I think, if I had a saying, it would be:

We've had my eldest son having major problems at work, all sorted now, thankfully. The way some managers think they can talk to their staff, simply because they are young and inexperienced has absolutely stunned me! Thankfully he has moved shops now, and his future is looking brighter.

Which brings me on to the next thing: He's moved out! Eek! It very nearly all fell through, but a last minute reprieve came through and he was given his keys. Unfortunately, he was given his keys while we were in London. 
My husband gets discounted tickets for the football, because of his disability, and being a lifelong Arsenal fan he snaps them up. Because he can't drive that far anymore, we tend to look at discount hotels and all go up for the weekend. RJ is a big fan too, so he goes to the match with his dad, while me and Ajax hang out. Unfortunately, as much as Ajax loves staying in a hotel, he doesn't like LEAVING the hotel! Honestly, it's why I prefer Travelodge/Premier Inn, because everything is there. The place we stayed in this time was a bit rubbish for WiFi and things to do.

After a rather boring weekend, for me, it was up first thing Sunday morning to drive back to South Wales! We were home by midday, ready to help the biggest move. We knew he would be excited, we were when we had our first place, many moons ago! So the rest of Sunday was spent filling the car and helping him get set up.

Monday was the same.

Tuesday was the same!!

By Tuesday night, me and Mr. Ojo were exhausted. We had spent 3 days moving his stuff, as well as moving our stuff around to give the rest of us some, much needed, room. We were going to take Wednesday off! We were going to rest, watch a film, cwtch up.

Until Wednesday morning arrived, of course.

It's been a while since we've had complete school refusal from Ajax. I'm assuming this one was because of all the changes, around the house. Wednesday morning he would not get out of bed, he sobbed. 
Then sobbed and sobbed some more. 
It was utterly heartbreaking. He's too big now, for me to lift him down and carry him, so this battle was lost. We made a deal that if he spent the day with us, he would go in the next day. I think he just needed to spend a day of normality, a day where nothing changed.

The next day he went in, full of smiles again. Fab, a day of rest, right??


Nope, RJ woke up with a nosebleed. He suffers terribly with them anyway, but this was a doozy. It started around 7:45am, and he was still going at 9am! So off to the hospital it was. Usually the hospital states they can't do anything, unless it's still bleeding. Normally, by the time we get him to the A+E it's stopped, not this time. 
He'd got there, and seen a nurse and it was still bleeding! He finally stopped around 11am. Mr. Ojo took him, as I bring Ajax home for lunch everyday and we really didn't want to mess up his routine any more than necessary. The doc that saw him could see where the blood was coming from, and advised having it cauterised. He talked RJ through it, thoroughly and truthfully, but RJ decided he couldn't go through with it. 

He was advised that if his nose bled again, within 24 hours, he needed to be seen. So, he was stuck home for the rest of the day, moaning because I made him do homework! Cruel Mam.

Friday, our last chance at a break, before the weekend...........couldn't have another day of it, could we!?

Guess who woke up with a nose bleed?

Off back down the hospital, to have his nose cauterised, with me pacing the floors at home! Again, home for the rest of the day, to recover. 

This day was kind of an anniversary, for me and Mr. Ojo. It was 28 years ago, that date, we met. We have always celebrated this day, why not? We were going out to the cinema, my mum was babysitting.

She almost didn't though, as she phoned me late afternoon, she'd bumped her car!! Luckily she was fine, mostly upset about her car. So she turned up in time for us to go to the cinema, and I kind of wish she hadn't. We went to see Mother! 
My honest review? If you get to see if for free, you've been overcharged! It was, by far, the WORST film I've ever seen (and I've watched all the Sharknado's). By the time we got home we were exhausted. 

Ready for a restful, lazy, Saturday.


Saturday, RJ got up by 6. 
6 fricking A.M.
 What is wrong with my children!?!?!? 
We spent the day trying to get the house in some sort of order, because it had been a little neglected. Then keeping the eldest calm, as he was starting in a new store that night, he was a bag of nerves! Turns out, he loved it.

So it was an early night Saturday.

But wait, couldn't be a completely smooth Saturday, could it?!

Of course not, Ajax couldn't sleep. Guess who ended up in our bed, until 4am. By now, the Mr and I are running on fumes. 

My mam had decided, after a crazy week, we deserved a meal out. I can't lie, we had pretty much lived off takeaways, and whatever we could grab, all week, a nice meal sounded amazing. 

Ajax was suffering with his tummy a bit, but it's an ongoing problem, so I didn't think much of it. As soon as we got there, he asked to be changed. Of course, like the complete (tired) dip shit that I am, I didn't take his stuff with me!?

So it was a 'best I could do' job, and on with dinner. By half way through my carvery, Ajax was asking when we were leaving, this is usually time to pack up and go, but no one had finished! While everyone ate dessert, Mr. Ojo took him to the car, with my phone, so he could watch Netflix.

Everyone finished, we came home. Shattered, but at least full.

Another early night, with fingers crossed for a quiet week.

So far, that's not looking good.

The dog woke me up at 2:15am, needing the toilet. Then Ajax was awake at 4am, with an exploding bottom. There was no way to clean him, it would of taken half a packet of wet wipes, so Mr. Ojo ended up giving him a shower, early hours. He didn't settle after that, until Mr. Ojo was wide awake.

He ended up back asleep, not waking until 11:30am. 
so guess who's home for the day?

So, if you see me out and about, looking tired, this is why.

This is my life.

Just give me a hug.
(but I might fall asleep on your shoulder)

Monday, September 04, 2017

Monday Motivation: Girl Power

Me and several other bloggers have decided to co-host a linky, called Monday Motivation. For those that aren't bloggers, it's basically a bunch of us writing a motivational post, and showcasing others that have done the same. If you want to read more, take a look at the other posts written, shown at the end of this one.

Mine is about girl power or, let's be honest, woman power! I've never been someone that was surrounded by a lot of friends. I'm talkative, never shy, I will chat to anyone, but I've dipped in and out of groups. 

I've had times in the past, where I have had a group of girlfriends, that I've gone out drinking with, having fun. I would rarely meet those for coffee though, they were 'weekend friends'.

Lately though, I've noticed my groups changing. My view of friendship is also changing. Very few of the people in my past would really understand how life is for me now. They wouldn't understand my lack of sleep, through worry (like last night, Mr. Ojo has been in a lot of pain. I couldn't sleep because I wanted to make sure he was ok!).

This is where friendship has changed. The ones I have 'in real life' don't expect to see me often, they understand that life gets complicated sometimes. They get that plans change suddenly. When the time is right, however, they will make me belly laugh in their company! Just this weekend we had a rare catch up. A pub, a group of 40+ women and a LOT of alcohol. I genuinely feel more human today, for talking and laughing. 

For one night I wasn't a mam, wife or carer. I was just me.

Then there's the online friends. They are the ones that are always there, on your phone. Most of these are also special needs parents, or fellow bloggers. We have fallen into each others lives through events or pages, then realised that we really are so similar. I can really open up to these ladies, I can be my true self. They will offer hugs that mean a lot, even though they are miles away. They will offer to kick someones ass, if they p*ss me off. 
They have become my rocks.

So embrace the girl/woman power.
Embrace random friendships that turn into something more.

And most of all, remember how great a night on the town can feel! (Although, not necessarily the next morning!)

If you want to check out the other motivational posts, now's your chance. Give them some love, one of them may just speak to you! If you are a blogger, and want to join in, the rules can be found here:

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