Sunday, March 27, 2016

Losing my inner Roar:

That is what has happened. It's gone, along with most of my energy, I think.

Here are some of the reasons why:

I am one of those people you complain about on social media, depending on benefits. The problem when you complain about that, publicly, is that you hurt those whose story you don't know. People that don't work, that live at the pub, smoke, have regular holidays, they actually don't give a crap! It's the ones that have worked hard, then life defeated them in all sorts of ways, that you really hurt.

I've lost my roar thanks to the government. They constantly ignore the mental health aspect of disability (they actually don't give a crap about most disabilities, in the UK, but this is my blog, not everyone else's). I have had no help, outside of schools, since discovering my sons autism. 

I have no respite, even most people that deal with us agree I need some. I normally depend on my mam, she comes and spends a few days in my house, with my children, while me and the hubby have a couple of nights in a cheap hotel. This year, so far, finances have been against us having one...........so far. We are having a couple of nights away in 2 weeks though. 

I wonder if that will revive my roar?

I'm exhausted from trying to lose weight. I've got to the point, where I wonder, do I really want it bad enough? I mean, I've never been slim, so why bother?? 
I really can't be assed to exercise, except for Zumba. Even that has gone by the wayside, the last couple of weeks. I fell last week, hurting a lot of the right side of my body. That added to the whole self pity party!

I'm no longer in the sling, it was more a precaution.

Like most carers, my life revolves totally around those that need me. They have all had my roar, I've shouted from the rooftops for them. 

Maybe that's why I squeak for myself?

So, in the coming weeks, I'm going to try and recapture my roar. 
It's time to see friends again. 
To get my hair done again. 
Time to care about ME!

So if you are a carer, and you've lost your roar, let's get it back together! 

Remind me to blog too! Because I keep forgetting.

12 comments:

  1. I hope you get your roar back soon, and please keep blogging xx

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    1. I will. I just have to give myself time to do it x

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  2. I hope things are better for you soon and you get your roar back!

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  3. Lots of love Jo as always, go and get that roar we all miss it xx

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    1. I will, I plan on doing something each day, to get it back x

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    2. I will, I plan on doing something each day, to get it back x

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  4. I think it's good that you have acknowledged that you feel like this...it means you can try and do something to make it better. I hope over the next little while things will come together to make you feel much more yourself.

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    1. I am doing a little something, each day, to encourage me to live again! x

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  5. Hope the roar comes back. Keep up with the exercise.. at the end of the day you won't regret it.

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    1. Unfortunately, at the moment, exercise is out. I had a little fall and there's quite a bit soft tissue damage. As soon as it's better, I'll be back zumbaring (that's a word, right?) xx

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  6. Oh lovey I am sorry to hear you are feeling like this. I know you will get your roar back because you are a strong, beautiful lady! I believe in you! Sending huge hugs to you all xxx

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