Friday, January 01, 2016

But......Maybe this girl can't!?

I'm sorry. I know this is the wrong time of the year to be feeling a bit negative, but I can't help it!

I've always been the 'New Year, New Me' type. For years I made resolutions, and very often kept them. Then gradually I noticed that nothing really changes, not really.

This year, I've realised that my life is a bit like a book. Each year is a turn of the page.
All the previous pages are still there, you are telling the same story, just using some new words.

I'm tired of this story though!

I've spent years looking after my health. I watch what I eat. I don't exercise enough, but a lot more than most. Yes, I like chocolate, but I don't indulge often.

Yet last year: My diabetes didn't improve, my blood pressure didn't change much, neither did my cholesterol! 

Also last year: I discovered I have Vitamin D deficiency, and very low iron. I also realised that if I cut out dairy, my stomach feels better, so I most likely have an intolerance to lactose.

I'm probably the fittest I've ever been, but that's it! That's only because I have fallen in love with Zumba.

What if I CAN'T?

What if I am the girl that will always fail? I get inundated with advice, but I've tried it all before. I'm doing the 'no carbs after 5' again, from today. Not because I think it will help me lose weight, but because I realised I slept better when I did.

I'm tired of setting goals.
I'm tired of failing.

I don't want to be the lead character in this stupid book anymore.

It sucks!

5 comments:

  1. I was feeling very negative on NYE as everyone seemed to be having a good time and I was up to my neck in special needs, and looking at this year I see nothing getting better, so i kinda get your negative mood. What can we do except keep going and hoping for a lucky break? xx

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  2. I think we set so much store by new year's resolutions. We make the exact same choices at various times through the years, but we call them "life choices" - people put themselves under so much pressure with new year resolutions! Just got to keep going and make the right decisions for you, whatever the time of year Xx

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  3. I think new years can bring out both negative & positive energy, keep making decisions for you that work throughout the year x

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  4. Ahh! Hugs! Do whatever feels right and good for you! People always put too much pressure on themselves this time of year! Try not to be too hard on yourself! xxx

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  5. Oh, Jo. Sounds like you're really down in the dumps! I get what you mean; you seem so fed up and when you did your month of honesty posts you seemed so fed up with nothing changing. My only advice is to blog it out - I always find if I keep writing down what's bothering me, it helps a bit. xx

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