So, I had the appointment today. The one where I was expecting to find out I had an under active thyroid.
Nope, apparently my iron stores are low. Normal figures are between 15 and 300, mine sits at 4. Please don't ask me what those numbers mean, I don't have a frickin clue.
I do know it means more medication!
For 6 months, I have to take iron tablets, 3 times a day. This now takes my daily meds up to 15 tablets, and 1 injection!?
How am I coping, you ask? I'm not.
I left the doctor and burst into tears. He could think of no reason why I'm NOT losing weight. 2 of the things I take are supposed to help weight loss, 1 of them causes weight gain.
Am I meant to be this fat, forever?
I don't over eat. My Slimpods have taken care of that.
I have found utter joy in zumba, and am going at least twice a week, sometimes four times.
I'm still tired all the time, but force myself to keep moving. I got 10k steps in 5 out of 7 days, last week.
I have committed myself to eating vegetables every day, and I'm sticking to it.
What more can I do?
Do I have to cut out EVERY slightly naughty treat??
I've always been told, even by my diabetic nurse, that everything in moderation is the best way to eat.
Writing this now, I feel defeated.
However, I will still get up tomorrow and keep going, keep trying to be a slimmer, fitter and healthier version of me.
Right this moment though, I'm going to wallow in my own self pity.