I have been having a couple of lazy mornings, with the children being off school. It has given me time to reflect, let my mind wander a bit. It got me thinking about the way I saw life as a child and, where I am now. I decided I don't like being a grown up. Was it the same for our parents?
So here is why I don't want to be a grown up........
When I was young, the t.v. only had 3 channels, we had allocated times of 'children's t.v.'. The people we saw on those programs were our idols, we looked up to them. We saw their images everyday, before tea........
As a grown up I find out that a few of these presenters were nothing more than predators. People trusted them to live up to their children's dreams, instead they were shattering lives. As a grown up, with children, I am terrified of everybody. Scared to leave them at clubs, until I know the person running it is CRB checked!
When I was a child I would happily put my headphones on, listen to music until I fell asleep. I would watch t.v. until I didn't want to.
As a grown up, it's my responsibility to see how much time is spent in front of the 'box'. I don't want it to be!! 'They' are always saying too much t.v./gaming/electronics, is bad for our children.......but why? My youngest learnt to talk, with a lot of help from an iPad. We live in a time where technology is everywhere! We shop, we play, we communicate.....all through modern technology. Who is to say that how much is good or bad?
Oh yes, that falls to me.....the grown up?!
Nothing cost money when I was a child, if I wanted something, and I was good, eventually I would have it. Or at least something similar.
As a grown up it has become my job to find the money, to find the rewards for good behaviour.
Worst of all, it's me that has to say no......I don't want to!!
As a teen, my parents split up...it happens sometimes. It affected me badly, I didn't know how to express those feelings, so I acted out. The usual, smoking, drinking, boys.......
As a grown up I see the effect that behaviour was having on my mum. The consequences of my actions. Now I have a teen myself and everyday I am thankful that he is nothing like me.
I don't want to be a grown up! All the responsibility sucks!