Thursday, February 14, 2013

Join the pity party

Today I'm feeling sorry for myself! I am fed up, and by Christ I deserve 1day with a bit of sympathy, even if I don't actually tell people what's going on.

I am in f**kin pain. Not just a little niggle, or a bit of an ache. 

Outright screaming bloody agony, on a Daily basis

I haven't ranted on about it, I have mentioned it a few times on twitter, and possibly once on fb. Quite frankly, apart from some lovely people on twitter,  no one actually gives a shit. 

I can't sleep, because turning over through the night causes me pain. I have to wake my hubby if I need anything through he night, as I can't get up. It's actually worse if I sit still too long. 

My poor family have had to witness this for months. I have to use a stick sometimes as they worry about my balance.

This week I have finally found out that it is something to do with nerves, going from my back and down my legs. I have been given new medication that seems to be helping a little. It takes my daily tablet count to 9 excluding pain killers!? I mean wtf!? I haven't turned 40 yet!

So there it is, off my chest and out in the open. Don't ask me what the actual nerve problem is, because I didn't understand at all. I just know that I'll need more physio and it may take a while.

So am I allowed to cry now?? Then I shall 'suck it up' and get on with things.

Ok? 

7 comments:

  1. Hi Jo,It's Gary ThunderBack...I know what you mean, I've been in constant pain for months, I've been to the doctors a load of times, he told me it was sciatica, the pain runs from my left butt cheek all the way down to my foot, the pain feels kinda like someone has given my a super dead leg but a million times worse. Finally he's sending me to see someone for a scan but that could take weeks. So now I've got all this pain in my left leg, gout and my psoriasis is coming back, (itching all over)but this time it's on my face behind my glasses around my eyebrow. If you need to talk I'm here

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    1. Thanks Gary. Its horrible being like this all the time isn't it? Can't the doc give you cream or bath stuff for psoriasis?

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  2. Yeah He did, but nothing works lol, I'm gonna have to get back onto the hospital, see if I'll be able to have the light treatment again. How are you feel today ?

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    1. Up half the night again, took pain killers 3am so I could sleep. Take time more one so I can get up x

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  3. awww thats horrid, constant pain is so draining. I hope now they know what it is they can help a bit xx

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    1. Hopefully. There has been a small improvement, hopefully it will get better x

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  4. Hope the improvements carry on, and you get some relief. Also hoped sharing it has helped, don't suffer alone!!

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