Today I'm feeling sorry for myself! I am fed up, and by Christ I deserve 1day with a bit of sympathy, even if I don't actually tell people what's going on.
I am in f**kin pain. Not just a little niggle, or a bit of an ache.
Outright screaming bloody agony, on a Daily basis.
I haven't ranted on about it, I have mentioned it a few times on twitter, and possibly once on fb. Quite frankly, apart from some lovely people on twitter, no one actually gives a shit.
I can't sleep, because turning over through the night causes me pain. I have to wake my hubby if I need anything through he night, as I can't get up. It's actually worse if I sit still too long.
My poor family have had to witness this for months. I have to use a stick sometimes as they worry about my balance.
This week I have finally found out that it is something to do with nerves, going from my back and down my legs. I have been given new medication that seems to be helping a little. It takes my daily tablet count to 9 excluding pain killers!? I mean wtf!? I haven't turned 40 yet!
So there it is, off my chest and out in the open. Don't ask me what the actual nerve problem is, because I didn't understand at all. I just know that I'll need more physio and it may take a while.
So am I allowed to cry now?? Then I shall 'suck it up' and get on with things.