I'm feeling all ranty and miffed today and I don't know why!
It could be my diabetes, or the fact that I'm dog tired! Or that my little one has mystery spots. Or it could be the state of my finances, the shitty car insurance people have cancelled our insurance thanks to a missed payment over Christmas! I know everyone has to make a living, but we did pay.......just late!
Or is it because I'm stuck in the house, again! I'm bored.
I did myself a lovely spa bath last night, a little mini sanctuary in among the chaos that is my home. I deserve something don't I? Being constantly broke these days I don't get any nights out, and boy I miss them! I couldn't even get over my friends for a cuppa, which I'd said I would. My kids wouldn't settle in bloody bed!
I'm so frustrated and, I'll admit it, Jealous........There I said it, I'm jealous of the people that get to go out with friends/partners at the weekend.
I'm jealous of those that have someone to babysit whenever they need it.
I'm jealous that they can afford to say yes at the drop of a hat.
I'm actually getting a little upset writing this. When do good things happen to good people?
I'm not bad!
I gave up smoking, I hardly ever drink because I'm nearly always with the kids, alone. My gym is in my home, so I work out daily.
I love my children with all my heart, and they always come first. I don't ask anyone for anything.
So when is good stuff going to happen to me?
I do know how self pitying this post today sounds, but you know what? I think we should all feel a bit of self pity sometimes when things aren't going our way. Otherwise, aren't we losing our spirit to try harder? To want more out of life?
I don't spend a lot of time feeling sorry for my self, but today I am indulging in it.
Now where's the sugar free chocolate............