Saturday, April 30, 2016

My Sunday Photo

Yes, I am actually sharing a Sunday photo. Actually more than one, but 'ya know'. I'll give a little blurb on each.

This first one meant the world to me. Last week I went mad clothes shopping, which in itself is totally unlike me! To top it off, I actually bought clothing that fit, which meant a size 18. I know that is still plus size, but it's much less plus size than I have been, for that I am incredibly proud of myself.

This is one of the tops I bought:

It's also quite a big deal for me to share more than my face!

I've wanted a tea (coffee) cup for quite some time, I just haven't been able to find 'the one'. This week, while having a wander around The Range, my hubby spotted this:

How gorgeous is that? I also bought some fabric, to attempt 2 tops with, which you can see in the background.

My final picture was another shopping trip (I know, a lot of shopping this week!). I can't remember what I went shopping for, but I came back with this lovely new bedding:

Now I can't wait to decorate my bedroom to match. (The cushion on the front was one I made for my husband, a few years ago, on Valentine).

I'm looking forward to looking at the rest of the bloggers that join in with the Sunday photo link, on Photalife, why not click the link and take a look too?


I've held off from writing this for a while now, because it's a bit icky. However, if it makes one person out there feel that they are not alone, then it's a good thing.

(Also for future reference, little A will be known as Ajax, from her on in! He's not that little anymore)

I've believed for a long time that Ajax has Sensory Processing Disorder, along with his autism. He doesn't just struggle with things like hair cuts (he gives my hairdresser a right workout!), he struggles with clothing, most food. The list goes on, it's become so normal for us I can't even remember all the things we've changed for him!

The thing that no one talks about though, is the bowel movements. He hates the feel of pooping. I think it must have hurt once, now he refuses to let them out at all. This has left him totally compacted, to the point that he constantly leaks. In easy to understand terms, there is now a large bowel movement stuck inside, and liquid is constantly leaking around it as he has no control.

At 8 years old, he has to be back in pull ups (nappy like pants), permanently. He also has to be on a form of laxative for 9 months. His bowel movements need to be kept soft, so that his back passage can return to a normal shape. 

Unfortunately, he still doesn't want to let it out and is panicking when he can feel things happening. We are trying to work out how to get around this. Basically we just have to keep telling him it's ok and hope that it doesn't hurt when it does come out.

If you have a child with SPD, don't panic. They feel things very differently to you and I. Ajax can't cope with some silly little noises, but loves AC/DC blasting in the car! It isn't normal, but it's not strange or weird either. Just different.

Most of all, don't forget to:

Also, I'm always available on social media, if you need to talk, you can find me anywhere as Ojosworld.

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

Making the Changes

I've noticed in real life, and on here, I've been very negative. I've not felt the best of myself, since my fall I got worse! I've said in a previous post that I'm not one of the 'positive mental attitude' types. I'm more of a:
'Life's a bitch, then you die'

Looking back at my memories on facebook and all I see is negativity, mostly about myself! I don't care what others think of me, I care about what I think of myself. Me and Mr. Ojo had a talk the other day (meaning I talked, he listened) and I opened up about things that have been getting me down. Mostly it's feeling redundant. 

The children look to him, around the house, I feel like the bad guy all the time. I explained that I have given my all to the men in my life, since I met him at 16. I was a working mum, then I was a stay at home mum, and a full time carer. 

The problem is, where does that leave me now?

The answer is: it leaves me to sort myself out.

I have made the decision to throw myself into getting fit and healthy, which is all I really want! So I have continued to listen to my Thinking Slimmer pods, I have gone back to Zumba AND I have joined a gym. Me, a gym.

I am starting to feel the difference already, so I thought I would share it with you.

If you have been giving your all to the ones you love, make sure you give some to you too. Even the smallest amount of time.

I am taking a positive attitude to my changes. This time I WILL succeed.