Friday, August 19, 2016


I'm not going to lie to you, there are days when having 3 boys is exhausting. Add autism and teenage hormones into the mix, and it can be flat out miserable.

I seem to be ferrying them here and there, mainly because I'm a pushover. Handing money out, hand over fist, while doing a meal plan to save money on shopping!?

That's what you sign up for when you have children isn't it?

No, because every single, exhausting, day has it's own exhilarating double!

Like today:

This week RJ has been going to a rock school, with his friend. Today they ended the week with a small concert, showcasing our child's work. I am beyond blown away! I wish I could share the videos I took, but I have other peoples children on there. 

I listen to RJ play daily, but even I didn't realise just how good he was. He played in a band of children that he only met 5 days ago! He did a guitar solo, which he told me later, was improvised.............he NEVER does improv! (Sorry for all the exclamation marks, but it was awesome!).

When we got home, KJ had opened the mail he received today. This was enclosed:

Look at all those distinctions and merits! I know all my boys are quite artistic, but to have it graded like this? It's like someone else confirming what I already knew. It's important for our children to see that their passion is paying off.

Then there's Ajax. Wow, that boy surprises me, in the biggest small ways. Not only did he want to go to RJ's concert, he loved it. He barely hid, once the music started. 
He was so anxious when he saw all the people waiting, but I got him to a quiet place, where he could get himself calm. We then sat on the balcony of the auditorium, away from most of the other people so he could stim, if wasn't. He loved every second! 

Those good days make every single bad day disappear.

Days like today I can remove the matchsticks, holding my eyelids up, because I'm wide awake.

And so, so bloody PROUD!

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

I'm Sorry!

I really am!

I'm sorry I pretty much disappeared off the face of the earth for a while. I am even sorry that I lied, on my facebook page, about the reason why. I said it was to spend some time on myself, this isn't true.

You see, life is hard during the summer holidays. The lack of routine can knock my boys sideways.

Sunday, July 03, 2016

The Anniversary: A poem

A lifetime together
has gone in a flash,
Twenty Four years of love.
We moved so fast
our decisions seemed rash,
but our love went over & above.

We've learned so much
we have grown our own brood,
loved so much about each other.
We've learnt every nuance
survived every mood,
I know there will never be another.

It's been Twenty Four years
with the love of my life,
Twenty Four years of bliss.
I'm so glad you
made me your wife,
My love I will seal with a kiss.