Tuesday, November 24, 2015

Tough Days

If you are a regular reader you will have noticed I haven't written anything for a couple of days, which is quite unlike me.

I'm afraid my negativity has taken over.
I am feeling negative about my body.
Negative about my health.
My failing body, in this cold weather, is another negative.

Then today came along and reminded me how tough I still am. How much I can actually cope with, with ease actually.

RJ had his electric guitar grade 3 exam today, roughly the same time as Mr. Ojo's physio appointment. Dropping the mister off to catch a bus was horrible. I know he's ok, but I like to be there. Like me, he would prefer I put the children first though.

I picked a very nervous RJ up, from school, to take him to his exam. I was incredibly proud of myself for calming him right down, even making him laugh, by the time we got there. When we were there, he practised, played games with me on my phone. He was nervous, but not 'high anxiety' levels, by the time he got in.

He nailed it. I did record him playing, but I couldn't go in with him, so all you can see is doors, I don't think you want to watch doors! Hubby managed to get back to the exam centre just in time to hear him play too. 

After a spot of lunch, he was dropped back to school. It doesn't sound like much, but keeping him calm can be mentally exhausting. So I was looking forward to a relaxing couple of hours, before school finished.

Just as we put on a film, and cwtched up........The phone rang. 

It was little A's school. 

Every Tuesday his class, and the other classes in the special needs part of the school, goes to outdoor pursuits. This is so good for little A, as he doesn't like going out. It's also good, as they can see his physical limits, this will help for future physio appointments he's waiting for, it won't just be my word that he is struggling.

 Unfortunately, one of the people that takes the course was sick, so it was cancelled. Change in routine is a BIG no no, not just for little A, also for a couple of others in his class.

It sent him to the 'sensory tent' they have, in class, where he refused to come out. The teacher got in there with him, and comforted him, but he was beside himself (her words). To top it off, he lost his Blu-Tak, that stuff is his lifeline, the thing he uses to self soothe. 

Thankfully I am always available, so I went to see him and ended up bringing him home (the head teacher also found some more Blu-Tak)

We managed to create a little sensory area at home too, as he found this so helpful. So I shall be spending some time looking at ideas for it, that are suitable for his age group.

So even though my health is getting on my nerves, and my hips and ankles are hating this cold weather AND I hate how big my stomach remains.

Despite all this I still rock.
I am awesome at some things.

Remind yourself of the things you rock at, the next time life gets you down.

Saturday, November 21, 2015

10 Things

I'm sat downstairs in my living room, all alone. The teen is still asleep (be lucky to see him before the sun goes down). Little A is lying in bed (alone!?) watching his IPad and Penguins of Madagascar (for the millionth time). RJ is in a contemporary music competition, playing electric guitar, with Mr. Ojo (RJ is playing, the mister is just watching him!).

So my mind is wandering, never a good thing. So here is a list of 10 things going through my mind:

1. Why is my body so crap. I can't lose weight, I took a photo this morning and I look bigger?! Do I need to go without food all together ffs?!

2. I really could run the cleaner over, seeing as little A isn't downstairs..........but I won't.

3. What can I be assed to cook for dinner today? 

4. I could measure my dining chairs, so I can make Santa hat seat covers (that I have the material for already). I probably won't.

5. Why did it snow so stupidly? Either pelt down, or don't. Don't sprinkle then piss off!

6. Why does my mind go at 100 miles per hour, when I'm alone, yet I can't think of a word in the 'words with friends' games I'm playing.

7. I am so completely and utterly jealous of the lucky bloggers in London today. It's the big, annual, Blogfest......I'm not there (obviously).

8. Why would anyone read this drivel. 

9. I should be doing something, but I don't know what.

10. Why the hell is Nigella on the TV!? I've never made a single thing she has cooked. And now I want chocolate, she always makes me want chocolate and I don't know why.

10 things going through my mind, right now, that shows you just how weird I am.

Happy Saturday lovelies

Friday, November 20, 2015

The Sky Blanket 2016

I've fallen in love with crochet again. I was taught the basics when I was quite young, but it wasn't 'cool' enough, so I lost the skill. In the last couple of years I've started crafting a lot more, and crochet was something I picked back up (I'm no longer cool, so it didn't matter).

I still only know the basics, polished thanks to YouTube. I can throw together an untidy granny square fairly quickly and will be found, most evenings, under a massive blanket I'm making. 

Then I read about a fantastic idea a couple of bloggers/crochet addicts have had: A Sky Blanket (If you want to know more, click HERE). 

I've decided to go with Crochet, as I find it so utterly relaxing. I'm going to do a granny square, each day of 2016, that matches the colour of the sky. I'm going to go with different times of the day, because I love the idea of sparkly black, for clear nights, or vibrant oranges and reds for sunset.

I know this will result in an enormous blanket, but I don't care! We do love a snuggly blanket in this house, as my current project shows:

If you would like to join in, go to the page I've tagged above, let them know you're interested and they'll let you know what's going on. I don't think this is open to bloggers only, just anyone with a love of crochet, knitting, quilting........anything really! If you want to see how the other bloggers involved are doing, click the badge at the bottom of this post.

I shall let you share any suitable wools I find, and my progress through the year. 

Can't wait to get started!
sky blanket